Lost my best friend ....

Now before I begin...'lost' is a word that I stretch in the most hanouse way. In a more greater way I dumped my best friend. For the longest time I thought that we were going to be best friends for every. Then about a month ago I realized something. He wasn't the person I had once grown to know. And apparently he still believes me to be that insignificant little speck that he met when we were in 8th grade. Sorry to burst your bubble honey but I haven't been that person for a long time.

But I can see his reasoning behind him saying it. When I was around him I turned into that person. I acted like nothing had changed because I thought that is how we would always stay friends. You could say that he brought out the worst in me.

I think my biggest problem was about a month ago he told me that he didn't want to move in with me and Jackson. Now I would have been perfectly fine with this if it hadn't been for the simple fact that the only reason he did it was because we were actually serious. Now I stopped talking to him because I was so angry.

I texted him today asking what his plans were after High School. He is moving in with one of his co-workers and not going to school. Whatever it is his life. But I was really ticked off because he told me that the reason that he wasn't moving in with Jackson and I was because he was going to stay home while he was going to school.

Then I finally just told him. How much I was angry with him for lieing to me for two years, as well as for not being a person that I can call my friend anymore. I told him that I was sorry and that I hope to look back on him some day and think of better things that the snotty little bastard that I see in him now. 

He texted me back and told me that I hadn't changed since the first day that we met. And that he could careless about me. And that he wasn't even angry. Which I am happy that I didn't upset him. In almost an ironic way I am happy it ended the way that it did. 

But now the hard part ... Who is going to be my maid of honor and who is going to be the godparent to my first born? Oh well.... here is the hand you have delt me life. And here is what I am handing back....

P.S. GOOD RIDDANCE!!!!

May 18

Sitting next to Nate durring one of the last "second periods" of the year. I was previously trying to figure out who was the person behind the "WeloveyouPG" reborn thing. But then I discovered that it had already been.... Well... discovered. That is right my friends. I have no idea who this person is nor do I ever wish to know him. I would rather that my private matters remain private.

Anyway Jackson and I have moved our wedding date up a year. We will be getting married in 2012. BUT if it turns out that I happen to be pregnant then I can assure you that we will be getting a wedding license sometime in November. But the actual ceremony will still take place in November of 2011.

Sorry I haven't written in a long time guys between work and Jackson and Prom and Morp and school. I haven't had alot of time to do much of anything. Sleep is even slowly dropping of the priority list. I also have to get as many hours as I can in so I can pay off all my fees and actually get my diploma. I am moving/getting kicked out in June. The end of June that is. I am getting pretty excited.

Guys don't get my wrong if I am pregnant I will have the baby but it might complicate things ...... ALOT. I just talked to Jackson's parents yesterday and it turns out that his mom is not as ignorant as I thought she was. And if it turns out that I do get kicked out they are willing to take me and let me stay in their house for lower rent than my parents would have.


That is pretty much all I have to say about anything. I am bored to death and want to get out of here so PEACE!