04/09/19

I didn’t even read the previous post. Did I post about how Jackson and I are divorced yet? Been divorced going on 3 years now. Anyway. I’m going to pretend you’re all caught up with my life apart from the last few months. I came out as transgender (ya know finally?) and I got a car with my boyfriend Vyncent. I am so burnt out over the last few days. Between doing new things in order to try and get everything squared away for the car, running into my co-worker in the men’s restroom or my sister yelling at me because she pre-ordered tickets I didn’t ask her to... I’m just tired. I’m tired and I was to fuck around with my boyfriend until I can’t feel things. I want to cuddle with stuffies, color, and read. My head hurts. Me ego is bruised. My dysphoria is sky rocketing. My anxiety is out of control. My bipolar disorder is getting out of hand and all I want to do is smoke a bowl and take a breather and fuck. I’m so tired of myself and my goddamn brain. I just want a moment. I love my daughter and Vyncent so goddamn much but my own brain is crushing me